Person washing hands at the sink with foaming soap

The same energy that drives us when feeling overwhelmed, is the same that can motivate us to focus on the work that’s most important to us.

I was browsing a mom group on Facebook the other day and another member mentioned “rage cleaning.” As I read her words, I felt like all my secrets had been laid bare. 

Here I was, thinking I was the only one who scrubbed and scoured through angry tears, using the elbow grease to exorcise the thoughts I can’t say aloud until a milder, kinder version finally forms. Apparently, I’m not alone.

It’s a Sunday morning and my kids have been up far too long. The older ones won’t stop talking, the baby just wants to nurse, and my husband is taking his time meditating. 

All I want is something for myself. A few minutes of silence. A workout where I don’t get interrupted with an emergency sibling conflict. Even a drive to the drugstore all by myself.

I can’t get it, so I rage clean. Or rage cook, in this case, because everyone needs breakfast. But I definitely rage clean after we’re finished eating. It does nothing to tamp down the overwhelm.

I need peace, so I can focus my thinking around this whole Patreon thing. I want to learn the ins and outs. I want to figure out how to offer you, my Patron, something of value as you support me in my life’s work. I want to know how to deepen my connection with you so we can truly support each other. 

It’s a rabbit hole, to be sure. But the same energy that feeds me in my moments of rage cleaning will also sustain me through that rabbit hole, picking up bits of carrot on the way – tidbits that will help me build a stronger relationship with you.

After breakfast everyone disperses. The older kids build a fort; Daddy takes the baby. I sit with the dog at my feet, the only sound now coming from the kitchen fan, and disappear.

An hour later, I emerge. I’ve got the beginnings of a plan, and a lot of energy to make this work. This is a new journey for me, and I’m glad to have you along.

-NK

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